इ'm home and alone. Hubby is working right now and will come home at 12midnight. I'm done talking to my beloved family. I've seen the kids and my mom, sister and my brother. My dad is fine and he's just chilling' outside. I talked to him last week so maybe that is fine that we didn't talk today.
Anyway, while I'm here in the computer I'm watching television too. It caught my attention when the 2 people where advertising the 70's songs and I didn't realized that most of the songs they were playing are some of the love songs that I like to listen when I'm emotional. And now that they're playing it, I'm starting to feel lonely because I'm alone and I'm not talking to anybody.
How I really wish I'm just home playing with the kids. It's really hard when you are far away with your family. In my whole life, for 27 yrs of my life I've never been far away with my family until I got married and migrate. Now, I'm here in US, I cant really tell 'Im successful. I wont be successful in life without my family. You know why? I cant share my happiness to them, I mean I cant see all their smiles, I cant talk to them everyday, I cant hug the kids, I cant see them playing. Oh boy, I really miss so much.
My friends telling me I have a brighter future but they never know how much hard for me to deal in this situation. Sometimes, I'm thinking I'd rather stay back home even we are poor at least I can see my family all the time. I can feel the support and feel that they love me. It's really hard when you are far with your family. I know now what is the feeling of those people who work overseas. I know now how they sacrifice their happiness just like what I did.
It's not that I regret that I marry my husband, maybe Im not just use to be far away. Even Im almost 2 yrs. here in States, I still want to go back home. I wont and cant forget my family and my friends.
So much of my emotions, I want to tell them I miss you all. Sooner or later I will be there.